Monday, 9 September 2013
No More Whiny Whinging!
As soon as I got home with my prescription on Thursday I took a tablet. Late that evening I suddenly noticed that I felt a bit better. I thought I must be imagining it but Friday morning - and I kept checking - I still felt better. More like myself. It was weird, whereas before I kept thinking, in a determined fashion, "no I do feel ok" and then running into the reality that I didn't, now I was thinking "surely I can't really feel ok?" and running into the reality that actually I did.
I remember that this happened last time I started on paroxetine, that I started to notice a benefit very quickly indeed. I feel lucky to have found an anti-depressant that seems to be so effective for me, because having had a little glimpse into the abyss again I have remembered just what a terrible, terrible thing depression is.
I'm still not quite right - I can't seem to concentrate to read books, and I'm still very tired and sleepy and not doing a great deal - but hopefully I'll continue to see improvement and there is also the option of increasing the dose at my appointment next week.