Saturday, 14 September 2013
Anxiety, Agitation and Anniversaries
I'm not feeling terribly well.
I'm trying to stay calm and think logically because getting in a state is only going to further scramble my head.
Just because certain patterns are playing out in the same way they did last year doesn't mean that it is inevitable I shall become ill again in such a terrifying and overwhelming way.
There is no reason I should end up in hospital so there is no need for me to be experiencing such blind frantic panic at the prospect.
I am trying desperately to think of ways I can occupy myself that are "safe", though I'm struggling to come up with much. Everything, everywhere, seems to be part of it.